Could You Have Mild PTSD and Not Know It?


Hello everybody reading this!  I hope you are well.  I am well rested and ready to take on the world after a nice vacation on the beach in Florida.  To tell you the truth, even if you are broken,e try to take a couple weeks vacation.  It’s good for your mind, body and spirit!

I’m writing about something that has happened to me recently, and I want to share my insight with you. I’m hoping that you can take something from my experience and really make you think, and hopefully help you with your life.

I’ve always been different.  As a child I was overweight, and artsy.  I’m an empath, medium, psychic  and very, very sensitive.  I was also bullied.  A lot. From childhood through adulthood, and even into the workplace, by others as well as my family.   You see, I always put up with the behavior because I always felt I had to keep a ‘stiff upper lip’.  Even in the workplace(which is the most embarrassing of my bullying, since I’m an adult).  I always felt I had no choice.  As child, I was shunned and not accepted, spit on, beat up,  even though I excelled in many things.  In the workplace, I needed a paycheck and put up with horrendous behavior at the hand s of a so-called program director, who went as far as to make fun of me whenever I opened my mouth to speak. ( I think that to be honest, workplace bullying is the worst, because you are an adult, and feel that you don’t have to put up with it, but still do. )  For me, this went on for 6 years. All this takes a toll on you as a human, and from reading studies about it, I’ve realized it actually changes your DNA in your brain, causing all kinds of mental health issues that can resurface at any time.

You hear people say to you, “You just need to let it go,” which I thought I did.  I never thought that I could have suffered from PTSD.  I thought it was for people like veterans and the like.  But oh, I was wrong.  So wrong.  PTSD can be subtle, and mild to severe. It wasn’t until someone pointed out some of my symptoms that I’ve realized, that is exactly what I have been suffering from. I am a mild sufferer of PTSD.

Am I completely cured and can I cure it?  Here’s the funny thing;  people tell you to ‘let go’, but PTSD people cannot.  It’s hardwired in their brains.  How can you get something that’s hardwired in your brain to ‘let go’?  You can’t.  You have to accept that is the way it is, and learn to deal with it.  Here’s some symptoms of mild PTSD.

  1.  Lack of true trust in anyone or anything.
  2. “Walls” around yourself, so no one can know the real you.My aunt used to say I was like an”M&M”.  Hard on the outside, soft on the inside.(Which was my coping skill growing up).
  3.  Inner anger, that can be triggered by anything that is linked to former bullying episodes.
  4. Tendency to ‘shut down’ and not communicate.
  5. Avoiding people, or wanted to ‘just blend’ in.
  6. Feeling of worthlessness, and frustration
  7. Little things annoy you, causing outbursts.
  8. You seem moody, almost like bi-polar, but still cope and have a family, career and somewhat social life.
  9. Have anxiety or depression.
  10. Tend to be moody, or brooding.
  11. Dire need to be understood, and accepted, even if there is further abuse.
  12. Sometimes, you are an overachiever, trying to prove the bullies wrong. In my case, it was a go-go-go attitude. It almost seemed manic, without stop.

Recently, I had some ‘people’ do and say some very cruel things about me behind my back.  I was hurt beyond mention. It takes me a very long time to trust people(symptom of PTSD), and I dealt with it for the first time, in the right way.  This made me feel empowered, and has helped my though patterns.  In the past, I used to get very angry,  held it in, and fly off the handle at other things, even tiny ones.  I’ve always been a very high energy person also.  So my moodiness was often seen as manic episodes, and all kinds of other things.  But anyone who also knows me, knows that I am a very careful planner, non-impulsive, and up until recently, even though I’d be down a little, I’d pull myself out of it.  By doing this, I has something else to put my focus on. I’ve been out of my hell job for three years, and for some reason, it has recently reared it’s ugly head. This is also very common, by-the-way.  It’s also common for PTSD victims to keep repeating the patterns that caused the bullying.

We are still all learning up until the day we die.  For me, the bullying pattern was created by  a lack of communication.  Whenever someone attacks me, I go into survival mode.  I get extremely quiet and go to shut down, like I did when I was 10.  But the reason why I’m writing this is because this time, I did a coupe of things differently.  And it really helped me feel in control.  See, that’s one of the main causes of PTSD, a lack of control.  Things are done to you that you cannot control.  That’s where the anger comes from. In my case, I never stood up for myself.  It always seemed like it made matters worse.  But for the first time, I STOOD MY GROUND.

Things That Are Helping Me

These are some thoughts and things I did to begin learning to manage my PTSD. So far, although we cannot completely heal from PTSD, we can manage it and become happier and healthier humans.

  1.  What people think of you is not your business.  Stay in your own lane. Remember this and use this as a mantra each morning.
  2. Do not let abuse go unacknowledged, thinking it will just go away.
  3. Think out what you want to say to the bully.  I practiced it and even wrote it down.
  4.   Force yourself to state your piece, calmly and clearly.(Hardest FOR ME!)Tell these people clearly that you won’t take their abuse.(Try to keep all emotion out of the equation). Don’t keep running away!
  5. If necessary, refuse to go back for more.  Don’t go back into the space that got you there to begin with.
  6. Find something you love, and do it, every day, if even 5 minutes.
  7. Be grateful for what you have, and even for the opportunity to grow from the bullying.
  8. Surround yourself with positive people, friends and family.

As of right now,  I am still in contact with these people who just said nasty things behind my back.(You do realize that talking behind your back is a form of bullying, right?) People do that a lot, but the difference was, is that they gained my trust, something that is very difficult for me.  That’s why I was so hurt.

I’m pretty sure, in the near future, I will be done associating with these people.   I have been contemplating this, and know that they are negative, judgmental people.  They talk about everyone else, so why would I assume they wouldn’t talk about me?  DUH? My problem is that as a child, I wanted to be accepted as part of the group so badly, that I was willing to be abused.  This pattern has repeated itself many times.  I now just cut many people out of my life.  It has been hard, but removing the issue is helping.

Just remember, you are a precious part of God.  You deserve respect, and love.  You don’t have to keep putting up with abuse and you also don’t have to keep being a victim of it.  Will things resurface? You bet. PTSD just doesn’t go away. But maybe some things I’m offering can help manage it’s symptoms. Remember, there are people who care. I do. Bless all of you with love and light.











The Super Moon Doesn’t Affect You? Total BS is evetyone? I’ve been having a few health problems myself, so I hope you are good.

As most of you all know, I’m not just a psychic/medium, but also a farm owner, gardener, artist and especially, a Middle School teacher. And that’s why I’m writing. I’ve been teaching for 28 years and I cannot believe people have the blindness to say that the full moon doesn’t affect you. Ask, any teacher, they will BEG to differ. (And it’s not only the phases of the moon, but weather patterns affect your body and chakras also.)

Recent studies have supposedly shown that the moon does not affect us or has little effect, although it DOES create higher tides. Now, here is MY question; if the moon can affect an ENTIRE ocean, and we are 90% water, then why wouldn’t it affect a much smaller entity, like a body? After seeing some of my student’s behavior, I KNOW the full moon and Super Moon affects us. And in more ways than one. This Super moon is a great thing for us spiritually, but be aware of the physical symptoms as well. Just get through the week and be awsre of it’s symptoms.

How the Super Moon Can Affect Us Physically

1. Researchers have proven that a full/ Super moon can affect sleep andcause a decrease in melatonin.

2. Causes increased birthrates, and ovulation cycles.

3. Increased problems with kidneys.

4. Tendency to be accident prone.

How the the Super Moon Can Affect Us Spiritually

1. You may have a deep desire for change.

2. Old wounds that may not have healed have resurfaced.

3. You dreams may be more vivid and those who have passed may come in your dreams.

4. You may experience anxiety and don’t know why.

5. Feel like something big is shifting, but don’t know what.

So if you have experienced any of this, just be awate thst it IS really the moon. Most symptoms will psss. Don’t make hasty decisions, but now is a great time for renewal and letting go.

Can’t Lose Weight? This Might Be Your Problem

Hello, dear readers!  I hope that everything is well with all of you.  With me, not so much, 1547402389660675233148I I will tell tell you about some information that I received recently and share it with you.  This information might explain your issues in your life, like it did for me.

Anyone that knows me, knows I’m overweight.  I’m not proud of it.  Matter -of-fact, I’ve spent many days wasting my timing inters as people made their little ‘snarky’ comments.  The fact is, it just doesn’t want to come off.  I have PLENTY of willpower(Sick of people telling me that I don’t!!!!!), I love to exercise, and if you can keep up with me, go for it! I haven’t eaten a piece of bread or had potatoes in years.  But I’m still very overweight(none of your business how much).

My story is quite a lengthy one.  I was overweight growing up, but slimmed down through my teens and twenties.  I played semi-professional tennis and was exercising 6 hours per day.  Then, I ate whatever I wanted without gaining.  It wasn’t until I had my children that I put on weight. And I put it on quickly. After my second daughter I gained more than 70 lbs. in less than a year.  I attributed it to not exercising, even though I was still active(walking 2 miles every day or more), and eating 1200-1500 calories.

I know my metabolism is slow. My bodytemeprature is low, my heartbeat is only 48 at night! But here’s the real kicker;  even though I’m overweight, every other number is perfect; my blood pressure,  my cholesterol, and even my thyroid T3 and T4. My nurse commented that my numbers look like I’m a thirty year old!

This doesn’t make sense.  I tried every diet, and nothing would come off.  “Try your thyroid”, the dieticians would say, when I argued with them that I wasn’t ‘cheating’ on my diets.  I even went to far as to get a lapland put in, and actually weigh the same as before.  Finally, the last straw came when it was my daughter who helped me figure out what was wrong.

My daughter had been having problems with her health for awhile now.  She was dizzy, extremely tired, had palpitations, severe anxiety and tingling in her hands.  I told her it was her thyroid.  My great-grandma, grandma, and mother all had goiters, or Hashimoto’s syndrome; the thyroid gland become swollen and does not work properly due to an autoimmune response. Very hereditary. But she tested negative.  That was until her car accident.

She had been teaching someone to drive, and they had a car accident.  She hurt her neck, pretty badly.  They took an X-ray, and what did they find.  Her vertebrae were fine, but she had a goiter!(A goiter is a swelling in your thyroid, which usually causes it to not work properly.)  I had an aha! moment.  How much you wanna bet my thyroid wasn’t working properly.

So I had it tested, and yes, I had the antibodies for Hashimoto’s Disease, which is an autoimmune response which causes your body to attack your thyroid.  But all my number were normal.  What was going on?

Sometimes, some of us people have intense protection we were born with that protects us.  I am SURE that I have a gene pattern that caused my ancestors from dying from the Black Plague.  My whole family has the ability to ‘wall off’ disease, and prevent infections, etc.  I’ll explain that later, but I am sure I’m right.  So actually, I have this disease, but my body tries hard to keep things working ok. That explains my low body temperature, heartbeat, and extra weight.

Could you also have these symptoms?  Ask your doctor for a thyroid antibody test.  The test is called Thyroid Peridoxidase Test. It could explain a lot! And maybe you are like me and it has a tendency to ‘hide’.  It’s worth a try and boy, I feel so much better knowing that my weight is really not my fault.  Let me know if you do this.  I want to hear from you!


Psychometry: Easiest Tool for Beginning Psychics

20190209_133511Hello all of my readers! I hope you are well. I live here in Wisconsin and it’s very, very snowy. But I wanted to touch base with some of you about what I’m doing lately to teaching and classes. Right now, where I live, I’m teaching beginning Psychometry classes(the art of ‘reading’ objects.) I found this to be beneficial when I began to read, so I’m teaching that to some of my students.

When I was thirty, I began my psychic career. My mom had just passed and I was somewhat “lost”. I took a Reiki trai ing class with a friend, and started practicing on some clients. Now this in itself is not so special, but I also started ‘reading’ them. I told them all about themselves and their lives, including detail and ‘people’ that were telling me things. (I didn’t know that these people were dead-end I was a medium). I discovered that  I was reading them through their energy.

All things have energy, just like Einstein said.  Things are always in motion, even if they are objects.  These objects also absorb energy, for good or for bad.  For example above, I’ve taking care of two plants.  One I tell it how wonderful it is, and the other I tell it it’s ugly, and I hate it.  Well, the one I gave negative energy to is dying.  You can see some pictures above. These plants take that energy for bad or good, just like all objects around us. Have you ever gotten a bad feeling from something, or someone? I bet you know then what I’m talking about.  Objects hold energy from love to hate, to fear to joy.  I’m just picking that emotion off of the object.

Psychometry is a good beginning for those who are interested in learning to read. It’s far simpler than learning nuances of cards.  It’s also open a gateway to better psychic ability.

How To Read An object

  1.  As a beginner, you need to find an object that has tons of energy on it.  Maybe some type of jewelry.  I always used to start with something metal because it conducted electricity the best. Start with a piece you have some knowledge about.  Maybe a friend’s ring.

2.  Say a prayer to God and your angels for protection of white light and guidance.  Don’t forget this; you don’t want anything negative to be absorbed, and trust me, this can happen.

3.  Begin a meditation.  You want your brain waves at a theta level.  Maybe wait fifteen minutes before you try the reading.

3.  Go to a quiet room, with no distractions.  Close your eyes.  Listen, look , feel, and smell.  DO you get any pictures in your head? Write down what comes first to your mind.  Maybe it’s a feeling or vision.  DO you hear anything?  Write it down. Do this every day.  Keep practicing.  And the most important; QUIT DOUBTING YOURSELF!  I have found that this is the number one barrier to being a good reader; doubt will get to you every time.  And have to believe in yourself.  If you can do this, it’s a cinch.

4.  Close yourself off and ask for protection again.  Make this your ritual.

4.  Keep practicing.  I can guarantee that you can do this!  It just takes practice and a willing attitude.


Psychic Abilities: Facing the Fear

I’ve been reading now for about 22 years or so. I’m beginning to get a lot of readings throughout the week. And we all know, one gets better with practice. Well, I recently scared myself by having too much accuracy. Let me explain myself.

Everyone’s skills are different, just like our personalities. My skills are animals, health, mediumship, auras and time frames. Time frames have become one of my specialties recently. I’ve always had the ability to give general timeframes within a few weeks, but suddenly, I am able to predict to the day, even national events. If anyone visits my fb page, they will see what I mean.

What is so scary is the fact that I’m accurate enough to go public. I still doubt myself, though. What if I’m wrong? Will I look like a fool? So far, everything is right. This is what I’ve decided to do with the fear.

Anyone who does readings doubts themselves. Psychics are NEVER 100% accurate. We can’t be, due to Free Will. Anyone can change situations if tge want. But some things are destiny.

But these predictions can be scary. It all comes down to confidence. This is what I rely on and know for sure; God gives me the information, do what you will with it. I trust what I’m told to be the right thing. I’m the medium; the go between. I pray before I start, and after I’m done. Then I let go of it. If I’m wrong, I’m wrong. I need to also let go of my ego. I need to remember it’s not about me. That seems to help.

If you are honing your gifts and are scared, just let go of your human ego, and let your gifts flow to who needs them.

Going Strawless: There’s More than One Advantage



Hello, all of you wonderful followers out there!  So I’ve been reading about all the plastic waste in the ocean.  I remember as a child(AND I’M NOT THAT OLD!) that someday the ocean MIGHT be polluted, according to scientists.  Wow, what an understatement! Americans are one of the worst offenders, using 500,000,000 straws PER day!  I had no idea that I was using so many myself, until I paid attention to it.  This was my New Year’s resolution; stop using plastic straws.  I thought it was one that would be a no brainer. Boy was I wrong!

Firstly, you have to make it a habit.  My first step was to remember to tell the cashier or waitress not to give me one.  It is so engrained in my habits, I ended up drinking out of it half the time before I realized what I was doing. I also bought some biodegradable straws, and then some reusable metal.  Finally, I started just drinking my beverages out of the cups. And you know what?  I’m glad I did.  I lost something a long time ago that I didn’t even realize.

After drinking drinks from my cup, I realized my drinks actually tasted good!  Straws have a habit of causing the the liquid to hit the back of your throat, where little to no taste buds are. ( i know you know this but, but I thought I’d repeat it.)  And this is what happened.

I think from drinking everything from a straw for half my life, I lost some taste.  Things seemed a little bland, much like water.  After beginning to drink 95% from a cup or glass, slowly my taste buds returned.  I started to actually enjoy my Iced Tea, and pop again.  I never realized I was even missing it!

So I challenge you, for the sake of the Earth and your taste buds, try drinking with no straw.  I’m so happy I did!